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Lonely Me
March 27, 2004 at 9:04 p.m.
Listening to: Madona
Feeling: sad
So tomorrow I finally get to go home and I can hardly wait, but I have nothing, but badness to return to. Tyler has a new girlfriend so I'm really sad about that. I like him a lot, but he doesn't like me. What makes me really mad is that I went out of my way to destroy me relationship with Jared because I thought we had soemthing and now I have nothing. Jared's off making out with Ciara and I'm just all alone. I'm doing all I can to get Jared back, but nothing is working. I feel destined to be alone for the reast of my life. I just wish everything could go back to the wayit was, but like always I ruined everything.
Due to all of this I hate myself. Suicide is not a far cry away. I hate feeling this way, but it's like nothing I do is right and no one wants anything to do with me. Tyler doesn't like me. Jared doesn't want me back. Sean loves his grilfriend. Josh and I are only friends. Tyler (Muffin) won't call me back. The only person who does want me is Tad and that is so beyond weird and he lives in Arizona. I know suicide is never an answer, but I swera it would make life so much easier. Besides I am such a selfish person that it would be just like me to pull some crap like that. It's not like I am actually capable of doing something like that, but I really wish I could.
Anywhos, I'm just sad and sick of peopler. I need a hug and my boyfriend back.
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