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Welcome, Ghost of November Past
2003-11-05 at 7:48 p.m.
Listening to: "Summer Wind was Always Our Song" by The Ataris (how appropriate!)
Feeling: sad
Like always I can't help but dwell on the past. I was just looking at my buddy list to see who was online and at the top I saw an add for a new Final Fantasy game and now I can't stop thinking about Chris. Back then life was so much easier and less confusing. For the most part I knew that I loved Chris with all my heart and wanted nothing to come between us. I would have given that kid his every wish if he had only asked and stayed with me. Sure, I'm a tad bit bitter about the nine hundred dollar phone bill that mistake can't destroy everything we had before then. He was so sweet and we loved each other ohso much. I knew then that I wanted to marry him and if he hadn't left me I would probably feel the same way. In four days it would have been our three year anniversary, but instead I'm celebrating two years of being without him. I miss the old Chris so much and altho life has turned out okay since then I would have rather it turned out with him. I loved him more than the world and I probably loved him more than I love Jared (what a terrible thing to say...).
Jared just called so I guess I'm gonna talk to him for now and cry later.
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