{{{Bite Me}}}

Scared to be Productive
2003-10-21 at 4:33 p.m.

Listening to: "If All Else Fails" by Matchbook Romance

Feeling: In pain

I can feel my wisdom teeth coming in and they hurt like crazy. The one on the right is coming in all stupid and crooked and I just know it's going to start moving my teeth around. This is just my luck tho. Growing up without needing braces then my mom can't afford to have my wisdom teeth out so my teeth end up ugly anywhos. I know that she'll get around to fixing our insurance along with the other things she has to take care of, but I think this important. I really feel like she's not putting me first. Here my parents are planning their trip to Reno and I need a trip to the dentist. Sure, the trip is important to them and I know that they'll take care of me it just makes me wonder where this money for trips comes from, but when I want Jack in the Box my parents are broke.

This money issue is the main reason I want a real job, a job with benefits. When I'm older I don't want to pay one hundred dollars for a trip to the doctors. If I ever had to do that I would never go to the doctors and I'd say "screw anti-depressants, foods more important!" Growing up is such a crappy thing. It's cool and all cuz I can't wait to be out on my own, but I don't know that I'm ready to handle all the reasonability, which is probably why I'm going back to school.

When I have to move to Monmouth It will be my first step away from home. Altho, I won't be living on my own, I will be fending for myself money wise. I'm scared outta my mind for that, but at least I won't be too far from home. It will close enough to drive home to see Jared, my mum, and shows so that's a plus, but I'm going got miss my friends! What on earth would I do without Katie and Tara? Sure, I'll make new friends, but those two mean the world to me.

All day I've been doing nothing and I feel like a loser so I think it's time that I go download my application to CCC and check the requirements for getting into Monmouth, even tho that's two years away. Yay, for being productive... You know I'm gonna get sidetracked doing something else...

bite back // scratch away

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