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A Nite Not to Forget
2003-04-10 at 7:26 p.m.
Listening to: "Cell Block Tango" from Chicago (the movie)
Feeling: I don't really know
Well I haven't written in a while so I'll just get to the good stuff.
Tuesday I went to The Ataris and it was AMAZING! I had such a wonderful time and I was in such a good mood. Not even Benji being there brought my spirits down. It was fun seeing all my friends and whatnot. Ffej and Drew were there and that was a good time. Hanging out with Ffej is always a good time; he even stole a NRK poster for me. I decided I'm not mad at Drew anymores and he decided he doesn't like me no mores and he's gonna stop talking bad about Jared.
When The Ataris came on I couldn't believe how wonderful it was. It was so intense and so much fun. It was definitely the experience I always thought seeing The Ataris would be. I heart them muches. Seeing them made me wanna spend the money of Warped Tour this year just to see 'em again. *Sigh* it was a nite that I will probably never forget.
Yesterday Jared and I had a bit of an argument and in a fit of anger I told him I wanted to give up on the relationship... I don't know if I meant it or not, I don't think I did. I honestly want to spend the rest of my life with him but sometimes I just feel like it will never work out. I don't want to end up divorced... I just can't live without him. Being away from him these past few days has torn me apart. The other day in 20th Cen. I started crying cuz I just missed him ohso much. I can't wait to see him tomorrow!
Today was pretty boring other than Tech. Going to Tech. always makes me smile. Today we painted the rocks, fire place, some other random odd jobs, and did a second paint on the row boat. The pressure to finish the set by Wednesday is really on. I know that I shouldn't put it on my shoulders because I'm hardly a part of it but being on Tech. makes me feel responsible for a large portion of it. I stayed late tonite and I'm staying even later on Tuesday to hopefully finish up. Seth said he'd give me a ride home so I'm gonna stay as late as he does, which will probably be pretty late.
Tomorrow I go to take my permit test... I'm so scared! I just know that I'm going to fail. Hopefully Jared has taught me enough that I can pass, but I'm just scared. If I get it I actually have to drive. I don't even know that I can drive. It's all so scary. I'm really gonna be embarrassed if I fail in front of Jared... I'm just really scared.
Saturday I'm going to see Taking Back Sunday, but I still don't have a ride. David and Shawn will be there so I'll at least have people to hangout with. I want to see both of them ohso badly. I'm kinda scared to talk to David cuz I know he said he was worried about meeting again. I don't want to do anything to hurt him. I'll feel just awful if I hurt him anymore than I already have or anything like that... *Sigh* it's all too confusing.
TYLER MADE OUT WITH MELISSA. Heh, that amuses me and I'm not so sure why. I love him! I hope he calls me soon cuz I know rehearsal is over.
Yeah, okay I think that's about it but probably not.
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